for my father.. :)

tommorow will be november the 19th, thats my dad's birthday.

every-year, ever since i was little, my dad wanted us to hand-make him his birthday cards. even then i was completely un-organized but i always made an effort.

this year i feel as if im too old to draw some pictures on a peice of paper, so i tried really hard to think of something unique i could do. i came up with this.

normally i would die before ever quoting Taylor Swift - but these lyrics seemed to sum up everything i wanted to say. so this is for dad -

I'm five years old and it's getting cold
I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you
I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides
Look now the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop till I forgot all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school
But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father
His strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother
Inside and out he's better than I am

I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

Now I know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
Staying back and watching me shine and I didn't know if you knew
So I'm taking this chance to say that I had the best day with you today

- Taylor Swift

youtube watch :- best days

my dad is the best dad i could ever wish for :)

Happy birthday dad :)

love, laura xx

it feels like..

i know what it feels like to be strong.
i know what it feels like to be weak.
i know what it feels like to be alone.
i know what it feels like to be surrounded.
i know what it feels like to be forgotton.
i know what it feels like to be rememebered.
i know what it feels like to be ugly.
i know what if feels like to be beautiful.
i know what it feels like to be happy.
i know what it feels like to be sad.

belle xx

and another one bites the dust.

life - in all it's many shapes and forms

sucks balls.

I hate depressed people - when life is such an amazing thing what is there to be depressed about? I look down on depressed people and here I am being one.

the guy I'm in love with loves someone else - he always has loved someone else and I've always waited to be the next 'one'.

sometimes I dream of a world that's different to here - someplace amazing and beautiful, that can fill the empty space is my imagination, someplace where there are no expectations, and no-one expects anything from me.

belle x

yes. i am back ;]

"it's never too late to set a new goal, or dream a new dream" - C.S Lewis

;]

Imma do the things that i wanna do
I ain't got a thing to prove to you
I'll eat my candy with the pork and beans
Excuse my manners if i make a scene
I ain't gonna wear the clothes that you like
I'm fine and dandy with the me inside
one look in the mirror and i'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot about what you think

<3

i dont have to prove a thing to you.

hello :)

i havent blogged in awhile, thats because i can say i have honestly not felt like it. Schools back, which means more homework and more bitchfights. But it also means more friends - which is cool.

Last friday night i went to my friend Isa's party, shes super nice and super fun so that equals double nice/fun. so yeah, it was great.

Ive also had lots to think about during the past week, im looking at other schools which really as me confused. My parents think that my school isnt 'academically challenging' me, and because im such a 'smart girl' i need all the chances and challenges i can get. So i went on a tour of another school today, and that just ended up in a permanent headache. Part of me is excited by the fact that i might be moving on to knew things, and then the other part of me which is a whole lot larger is screaming "NO! IT'LL RUIN YOUR WHOLE LIFE!!" which it will, it'll change everything.

tommorow night i have another party, and it should be fun, i think i need some fun to get all this headache feelings out of me. right now im watching 'the mist' which is probebly one of the best movies ever. I remeber the first time i saw it, my mum and dad said "okay, we can watch the first half but tonights a school night so we'll have to watch the rest tommorow" but we all got sucked in and ended up watching the whole movie and at the end we were all crying, its memories like that that make me happy.

i know that when my dad gets home tonight he's going to grill me and mum about the new school but im really not sure what i want to say, i have my friends at school and i honestly dont think i can just leave. But i know dad has a point about my current school, and for the sake of this blog lets call it the 'nunnery'. I've been at the nunnery since year 7 and although it seems corny and lame i do feel like i fit in there, moving to a new school right now seems like a form of torture. Plus the girls at this new school are totally odd, i dont want to sound mean but no-one is that happy, they kept talking about 'community spirit' and how the programs are 'just amazing' - which they are, but no normal teenager gets excited about that kind of stuff.

anyway, moving on, im obsessed with this song right now - its called pork and beans by weezer. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=muP9eH2p2PI <-- go there

photo time now :) -

eight things ♥

eight things i love ~ ♥

one. anna
two. new books
three. playing "comptine d'un autre ete" on the piano
four. halo 3 - odst
five. red faction
six. new music
seven. sunsets
eight. life


laura belle xx ♥